figured i should drop a few lines and and keep u posted on my ambitious endeavors to become a lawyer. you know --- b/c i have soooo many fans reading my blog at this point. cant neglect u guys.
geez, i feel like i'm just writing in a diary for myself but i truly promise that i will look into getting this more visible for the public...thats assuming anyone even cares to read my bipolar rants about my experience at law school.
well, for the purposes of procrastinating on my reading i'll give u a quick update to my life or lack of.
got final grades from those crazy exams i took mid may. and well, all i can say or ask is for someone to just hand me a rope or a razor, bottle of jack and put some Sade on. i still haven't fully recuperated from my horrendous scores. out of my 4 classes i actually failed 1. i failed civ pro. i didnt fail it to the point where i have to repeat it but i still "FAILED" it. and my other classes, well, i just scored average. considering how much i study i should not have 1 - FAILED civ pro and 2 - i should not have just scored average in my other classes. at one time i was within the top 5 and now i'm just a peon dragging and scraping my way thru.
if i didn't study as much, then i would be okay with it. but i did. so i ask myself: what the hell is wrong with me?? am i mentally challenged? wtf?? do i not speak English? or rather, do i not understand friggin English?? can i not write?? ugh. law school has seriously stripped me of whatever intellectual dignity i had left. i'm not kidding. it doesnt help that no one wants to hire me either. though now that i dummied down my resume maybe i'll have more prospects. (isnt that sad that i had to dummy down my resume just to prove i can do stupid administrative work? these employers dont understand that i can give them 2 years of work ...well, okay..1 and 1/2 years of work b/4 i have to stop working to study for the bar and it can't be a job that is too demanding. if that were the case, i'd be going back to my original field but those a-holes want 50+ hours. and against my better judgment, i have sought out interviews in my old field and 1 place told me the hours are 8:30-6:30 plus overtime....NEXT!! )
anyway, i digressed.
so, as i was saying friggin grades. i have spoken to a faculty member and he is so very helpful. he should've been a shrink. love that guy! so, i definitely did some things differently this time around as far as studying. i put in the time, but there are some things i changed which i should NOT have. and i will be going back to my old methods for sure!
so, here i am licking my wounds taking 3 summer classes. 1 is sales and we are pretty much tearing apart the statutes in the UCC. i thought i was gonna coast thru this class b/c it's pretty much like a contracts 101 class. and i did very well in contracts. but, not the case. i feel so incompetent in this class. i get the idea behind the statutes thanks to my awesome contracts professor but when this sales professor starts tearing at the statute i get so lost and confused. i can give him the idea of what the statute is about but when he starts asking me specifically what UCC 2-202 means looking at the language directly from the statute, it's like 'fuck man! i cant read this shit and break it down word for word.' then i get all confused and nervous so it makes me feel like a bigger idiot.
so, welcome to the law school experience...at least mine.
i'll write some more at a later time when i have more examples of my inabilities to thrive in this dream.
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