been off this week from school and have been living blissfully. last final was last wed and though i was a mess up to that very wed, it was all over after that. though, wednesday night i couldnt sleep as i kept dreaming of civ pro codes, or should i call them nightmares? so, it was a very bad wed night. then thursday night was somewhat better but not that much. couldnt sleep again..then fri night was okay.
i thought i wouldnt know what to do w/myself during this break b/c of the constant routine of school but trust me, i am enjoying doing NOTHING!!!!! it's fucking awesome!! i do not feel lost. besides, i am keeping myself busy w/running random errands, seeing friends i have neglected while school was in session, looking for jobs online and in between all this, just watching random tv and taking naps throughout the day. oh and of course hitting the gym. yesterday i took an 8pm spin class w/this guy who is really good and i never get to take him b/c i usually have class on mondays. today i watched the law and order svu marathon throughout the day and napped and of course applied to a dozen + jobs online. meant to go to the gym today but was a lazy day today. tomorrow for sure though.
actually i have to wake up at 6 one of these days to go to a dentist. if only i could get myself up at that time. as u probably know by now, i have no money cuz i go to law school, so if u go to law school u know what i'm talking about. and i also have no insurance. i have a tooth that has been bothering me for the last couple of months. as long as i dont chew on it i'm somewhat okay. there is this "free" clinic i go too for medical stuff and they also do dental work too BUT they only see 2 new patients daily mon-thu and u have to be the first 2 there when the doors open. so, that means i have to get there before the doors open!!! and i have no idea how early people get there. the earliest i've been there has been 7:45 but that was for the medical side and there have been people there already. so, my plan is to roll out of bed at 6 and get there by 6:45ish..and hope to be the 1st. i'll have a book of course to occupy my time while i wait. i cant keep putting this off. it hurts bad sometimes. really bad.
it really isnt "free" but its alot cheaper than going somewhere else.
i went somewhere else last year for another tooth problem, ugh man i spent about $500 in just 2 stupid visits. he was a root canal specialist. the first visit was so he can take an xray and try to see what the problem was and prescribe antibiotics in case something was inflamed and the 2nd visit was just so that asshole can look in my mouth and ask me how i've been feeling and tell me he cant do anything more and tell me who else i should see, which btw - he told me the same shit in the 1st visit. so the 2nd visit was pointless but i didnt know that! i thought he was going to do something!! and that 2nd visit was in the $200 range. luckily that tooth problem hasnt been hurting much. that was a root canal gone bad. root canal that was done about 5 yrs ago. but the problem i have now is NOT going to go away, a piece of my tooth cracked off or something. i cant really tell b/c its in the back but something happened back there a couple of months ago and its been hurting ever since...and its hard not to chew or get food there since it is in the back of my mouth.
anywayz, enough about my dental issues.....point is i have to try and wake up at 6 one of these days to take care of that. i also have dinner plans tomorrow w/a friend. then i have another friend coming in this wknd from out of town. then the fun is over and school starts and crazy neurotic bipolar me comes back.
oh, my father isnt coming this week. i'm glad. for sure this has turned out to be a stress-free week. dont know when he's coming. dont care. he'll let me know when he decides.
i guess one of the things i should work on this "la di da" week is figuring out how to make this blog more viewable so all u folks can read and feel my pain and know that it's really not just you. we're all in this together. u are not alone in pursuing this endeavor. and those of u who actually go into law school thinking that u'll rock it w/no problem, then i have just a few things to say for u. u can take them all in, or just some of them in:
1 - good for u, i admire ur confidence and wish u the best w/that, if u r that brilliant and can do it then kudos to u!
2 - get off ur high horse. sorry, but its time to humble urself.
3 - u must realize - this is NOT undergrad. u may find a law school class somewhat easier than another, but u will come across that damn class that is so going to fuck w/ur head and u r just not going to get. also, all ur classes u r gonna have to work hard at. if u wait till the end to study for them right b/4 the exam u r sooooo friggin screwed. i repeat: if u neglect ur studies the entire term and wait till the end, u r SCREWED!! i see people do it. they are more stressed than i am b/c they dont even understand the concepts and didnt bother to try to learn it during the term. well, u'll see.
u know, on our last final, this guy who does okay in class, he isn't the top of his class. i've scored higher in some classes than he has. so, this guy comes up to my friend who scores top in almost all her classes, and tells her "i'm getting the highest score in this class. i'm going to do better than u." just like that. totally random just walked up to her and said that. she didnt say anything she was just polite and smiled. i on the other hand, made a comment about his confidence. i didnt want to say anything mean b/c i get lecture CD's from him. i pay him but still, he doesnt have to include me in on the deal. plus i am trying to learn and practice self restraint w/my mouth. so my comment wasn't bad but i did call him out on his confidence and complimented him for it.
until later....gonna continue w/my la di da life right now :-)
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