Nightmare

so, when I wake up, i wake up into this nightmare. nightmare is that tomorrow i have the corporations final and then 2 days later i have a civ pro final. both of which i am not as nearly prepared as i was for property.
i'm exhausted, i look like shit, and i've gained 4 pounds which i now need to starve so i can loose them as quickly as i gained them.  i basically ate a ton of cookies and cheetos and thats how i gained them so quickly.  easily done though since i'm truly nauceous and all i feel like doing now is just throwing up.
corporations consist of my professor teaching us in tongues and all the upper classmen tell us that we should NOT study for this guy and even if we write the rules down wrong he wont ding us for them. all he cares about is how we weave analysis in with the stupid facts. thing is that in order for me to weave analysis in w/the facts i still need to understand some of what i'm talking about and when our pfoessor uses words as "little fish" and "big fish" and "goat" and "the man" it makes me having to go on wikipedia to figure out the fucking rest.
anyway, then i have civ pro which is 70% of our grade which i actually do know but she's a prima donna who likes alllll the rules stated properly. so, i have to go and memorize the rules almost verbatim to get as many points as possible.  i can pass the class but then i get all competitive and i know i can do so much better than just pass.
friggin nightmare. the only time i actually have a moment is when i sleep. which is weird since usually i dont sleep well during times like these.
on  one hand i want this to be over but on the other i dont want it to be over b/c i'm NOT read!!!

oh and did i mention that i spilled water on my mac last week? well, it still works but that sure didnt help my stress level not knowing if it was going to crap out on my during the stupid exam(s).

as for my property exam, that professor - piece of work man. piece of fucking work.  but it was okay. i wanna say i passed but then who the fuck knows. i studied my ass of for this exam....but then again i did so for last exam too and it didnt get me very far at all.   i already know i screwed up my takings analysis. i analyzed alot but i still screwed it up somewhere. i know i analyzed other parts really well but how much am i gonna get docked for the part that i screwed up on?? no idea. and he had a stupid interog on a life estate. i completely forgot what a life estate was. totally forgot!! lots of people ran out of time. i had time to spare which was uncomfortable when u r staring at an interog and dont remember how to answer it. fucking sux ass.

oh and did i mention my father is coming?? for 2 days or so. my sister actually posted "yay my papi is coming on fb." i have no idea why. its just stress.  after all the times i've told him to come when he made trips to NY and now he's coming b/c he's actually dropping off his wife in NY.  now he has no "victim"  to run back to in DR too. (DR - dominican republic. no, i'm not dominican.)  he goes and runs to his victim wife meanwhile he was never there for me or my sister or my brother when we really needed him b/c of his wife who trust me was no fucking victim.  well, i cant get into that now.  so, now he is coming.  i didnt even ask him to come and now he is coming.  whatever!  last 2 times i asked him to come he didnt even call me and just left NY and flew back to his country w/o even a phone call and now that he is dropping off his helpless wife he friggin sends an email and is coming. the nerve! ok. have to stop.  have exams to focus on. but 1 more thing u'll find interesting ----

my mother sees my sister's "yay" post on fb and has the nerve to send me an email and suggest that i ask my father for a loan for the next 2 yrs of law school so i dont have to work full time.
meanwhile she's a shopoholic. i'm really not kidding. i'm not making this up...she really is a shopoholic. and i get it. its her money and she can do what she wants with it. she sure works hard for it. i get it. but the nerve for her to tell me to ask my father for the loan.  meanwhile she doesnt give me ANY money.
i do admit though that last time she visited me and gave me gas money she gave me more than she needed and i took it with no problem.  i usually dont take it.  but this time i was like 'fuck that! all the shit she buys, i'm taking some gas money +" and i let her treat me to some electroshock thing that was supposed to destress. normally i'm always watching out for her pocket but why should i? she doesn't.

okay...well, signing off so i can get back to deciphering code and memorizing scripture.  as u can c i'm such a bundle of joy.